If I’ve been rather quiet recently, it’s because I’ve had a lot on my mind. The image above has always made me laugh, but I’ve been wrestling with a triangle of my own. Is it really possible to childmind, home educate and study for a degree without something suffering? Throw my health into the equation as well and the result is an exhausted, grumpy mother.
I realised that something has to give, so I’m quitting childminding at the end of this term. It’s been a very sudden and unexpected decision, considering that just a few weeks ago I was considering expanding my business by hiring an assistant, but I’ve been praying about it and I’m confident that it is the right one for me and my family at this moment in time. It wasn’t until I actually made the decision and felt a huge sense of relief that I realised how much stress I’ve been under.
I gave notice to my families this week, which was hard. I’ve become very fond of my little mindees and I feel guilty for letting people down, but they were all really understanding. I know that in twenty years time I’m not going to regret giving up my job, but I will regret missing out on precious time with my children and not giving them the attention they deserve.
So, four more weeks of work and then a new chapter in our lives will begin!